Every once in a while I notice that spring is here. I feel a soft breeze or smell the fresh scent of beginnings in the air. I should be more aware but both my focus and attention are aimed at two special dogs who are leading me on journeys that both fascinate and overwhelm at times. One is Sahara (formerly known as Sutton and Sahira) and she is the sweet girl who suffers from seizures that we had surrendered to us from the Newmarket SPCA. I took her at a time when we were on over load and had absolutely no room for another. I was compelled to act though once I heard about her situation. It is definitely something I shouldn’t have done but couldn’t not do. The times that happens to me are not often so when it does, I feel there is a reason I will come to understand. She has had two seizures since she arrived here and those were one after the other on her third morning. She has not had one since. Our vets have begun monitoring her and finding the meds that will keep her stable.
Sahara didn’t respond to her new name of Sutton so we gave her one closer to what she was accustomed to. It actually signals a new beginning to a dog if you change their name. This girl is strong and confident with a personality of pure delight. Her exuberance over her new found happiness is thrilling but needs some tempering with training and boundaries. That is part of the journey we are on together as we both need to learn patience in the midst of chaos - she through seizures and me through crazed times.
Joe is my sweet boy who had his leg amputated after he was run over by a car in Attawapiskat. His surgery was extensive as it involved amputation of the back leg, repair of the front paw and neutering. He was sent into foster care for his rest period and is now with us for his jubilation and glee phase. Joe could care less that he lost a limb – life is good and he intends to take full advantage of it. Joe’s journey is showing me that courage, hope and faith can exist through times of desperation.
Both dogs seem to expect so much of us. I have long felt that disappointing a dog is one of the greatest failings we can have in life so I must follow where they lead. My challenge is becoming a better person through patience, courage, hope and faith while juggling the realities of exhaustion, frustration and at times dismay. Clearly I am meant to raise myself up but in truth, I am tired and worn out. I suppose that is why Sahara and Joe came when they did. I am meant to understand that not all things must be achieved through endurance and sheer will. The seizure girl and the three leg dog are showing me to work with myself and not always against my limitations. When you rescue a dog, it rescues you back.