There have been far too many times when I had cause to imagine how a dog felt after being abused, neglected or abandoned. I thought I was only able to imagine because somehow, dogs suffered differently than humans. Until recently, I believed they reacted and perceived acts of meanness and abandonment differently than we did. I was wrong. I have come to understand that dogs feel emotional pain just as we do, they simply carry themselves differently through it.
For over a year now I have struggled. On good days, I consider the physical and emotional pain to be an opportunity for personal growth and on bad days it is simply a journey of suffering. Hope, too often, has been discouraging and belief has, at times, become disgust. I tire of trying harder, of striving to overcome and thoughts of gratitude make me sad.
It is not the brain tumour that causes my days of darkness. It will not be physical pain that defeats me.Read More